Tired and ready-to-give-up, but God's still there ?

Wow...I thought I liked the busy, non-stop lifestyle, but it's really starting to eat at me. I have no time to just sit back and chill and listen to music or do email or AIM or even play my guitar!!! I'm constantly tired, and I've actually been more disagreeing with my parents lately (which, for me, is NOT a good sign, because I usually try as hard as I can to cooperate with them and obey and not argue...different story right now...)!

But the Bible says "Come to Me all who are weary, and *I* will give you rest!" (that's actually quoting Rebecca St. James' song because I can't remember right now where in the Bible it says that, lol)

Is He meaning spiritual rest? Physcial rest? Both? What? Well, I've been finding that just being in His presence is restful and relaxing...just laying on my bed and saying, "God, I love You! You are my King, my Creator, my Savior, and my Daddy! I praise You Father! Thank You for being all You are to me!" And then just resting in His love and grace as I'm overwhelmed with Him...it gives me a chance to focus on what my focus point SHOULD be (God) instead of what it becomes (work, school, chores, etc.). So then when I'm done, I walk away with a new-found strength and I'm able to face a lot more with confidence! :)

So, take some time to just sit back and relax and meditate in God's holy and refreshing presence...even if you aren't stressed out or tired, it's still an awesome experience! :D Speaking of which, I think I'll go do that right now...

God bless you all, and have a great rest-of-the-week!

<>< Fading Flower<><

Entry at 00:01 (or 12:01 am for all you none-military people)...

I'm tired, and I must get off to bed. But I wanted to leave you with something still...

As I was cleaning my room the other day, I found a note that my dad wrote to me when I was 9 years old. In the P.S. of that note he said something that stuck to me, and I hope it will stick to you too!

"No matter what happens, keep your head up! The view always improves when your head is looking forward and around you, vrs. the not-so-appealing view when you're looking down!"

So, let your confidence soar, and keep your head up in all you do! If you do, you will gain a new-found strength and confidence you've not known before, and people will look up to you for it!

God bless, and enjoy the view!!! :)

<>< Fading Flower <><

Leadership is ONLY for leaders!

You know how often that is said or implied? "You're just a student, you can't lead!" or "Kids are so immature that if we gave them ANY bit of power, the whole GROUP would be gone!!!" And so on and so forth. Well, I'm here to tell you (and them) that that is NOT true!!! Don't believe me? Read on...

God put us ALL in positions of leadership from your pastor, to your sunday school teacher, your boss, to your teacher, your mom and dad, your younger brother and/or sister, to YOU!!! There's no laws saying when you are and aren't not a leader...God made us to be born leaders! To whom, you ask? To everyone God has placed around you in your life!!! Those people, no matter how much younger or older then you they are, were put in your life so you could be an example and leader to them. Now that doesn't give you any excuses not to follow them, because they were put in your life to be leaders to you as well. Not making sense? I didn't think so. I got an email from a friend this morning talking about this that said it better than anyone ever has I think. Here it is:

"A lot of people in today's world are confused about the issue of
leadership. Most people think that you have to be the best, the
smartest, the best looking, older than those you lead, and the list
goes on. But I've found that a good leader is not necessarily the
best in his field, nor the smartest, nor the best looking. A good
leader is someone who ecourages others to persevere in bettering
themselves. Moreover he himself must set the example in his words and
conduct. Anyone can be a boss, but it takes boldness to do what's
right, perseverance in the face of trials, and an understaning of
other people to be a leader. A good leader must also be willing to
follow. He must be open to learn and grow not only from those who are
in authority over him, but also those over whom he has authority. The
Bible clearly defines a good leader in 1 Timothy 4:12 "Let no one
despise your youth, but be an example to the believers in word, in
conduct, in love, in spirit, in fatih, in purity." Be the example
that Christ purposed you to be, regardless the circumstance."

Just a bit of wisdom for you to ponder, pass on, or ignore.
(Please don't do the latter!)"

Now do you get it? I thought you would! ;)

Now, I'm off to be a leader to my mom (picking up my breakfast stuff so she will see and pick up hers), my sister (clean my room so my sis might get some ideas and make mom happy), and to you (by getting off the computer when my mom tells me to!(which should happen in about 2.5 minutes, hahaha!!!)).

May God bless you in your life, and may you reach new heights as you find your leadershipness hidden in your life by our Ultimate Leader!!! :) Have a great day!!!

<>< Fading Flower <><

Answers but none

Confusing, huh? That's what I thought. What do you do when someone asks you a question and you have the answer, but they don't count it as the right one? Do you just leave it and let them figure it out (or let them spend the rest of their lives trying to figure it out)? Or do you push it on them? What do you do if they keep asking you what you think and you keep telling them what you think and they don't like it??? Do you keep telling them or do you just shut up or say "You already know what I think"?

This is something I have been dealing with a LOT lately...so many friends and family that are asking my advice, and when I give it, they say it's wrong or argue. I want to help them, but they won't accept it! Are they wrong? Or am I? Whatever it is, I sure wish I could figure it out....

And then on a lighter side, I was thinking today (pretty amazing, huh??? wait, don't answer that...); I was reading a friend's blog, and they were talking about sacredness, and how we, as christians, can pass the "sacred" part of things and look at it like it's wierd and almost demonic. Well, I think that's so true, and it really inspired me to write a song. It's not done yet by any means, but here's a rough draft:

"Sacred Space"

"As I come before You and bow at Your feet
Your presence surrounds me and I become weak
Your holy fire burns and lights up the dark
And Your mystical grace consumes my heart

You lead me to this place that words cannot describe
Your voice then speaks with healing grace, in You I can confide
My heart is tired, broken, and burned, I don't know where to turn
Your Holy Spirit reaches out with healing grace
And keeps me in Your Sacred Space!"

Like I said, it's not done yet, and I'm still trying to come up with music for it, but it's coming...I just really want this to bring out the true, sacred feeling and atmosphere of what being with God is like. It's no where near coming close to that yet, and it really never will be. Like it says, words cannot describe His Sacred Space! :)

Anyways, I'd best be off for now. In the mean time, may you somehow discover God's sacred touch and space in your own life in the next week...at least!!! God bless!!! 0:)

<>< Fading Flower <><

Me

Ok, I decided to go ahead and post a picture of what it looks like just because I have nothing better to do....

"http://christi.pollisplace.com/Christi1.jpg"

"http://christi.pollisplace.com/Christi2.jpg"

(I couldn't figure out how to post them directly to this page....(HELP SOMEONE!!!! :P!!!) so if you want to see them, you'll have to go to the pages themselves...

It's all messed up and big and sideways because my sis just posted it online for me and she didn't bother to make any changes....so IT'S ALL HER FAULT!!!!! >:D

Anyways...if you like it, please leave a comment and tell me it's ok...and if not, don't bother posting....lol!!!

<>< Fading Flower <><

Sleep? Who needs sleep???

In the last 51 hours and 30 minutes, I have gotten exactly almost to the minute, 7 hours of sleep. That means I have been running on adrenaline for the last 44 and a half hours!!! And then when I was going to *finally* sleep in this morning, my sis wanted me to do some stuff with her and she woke me up EARLY!!!!

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And then to top that off, I came downstairs to chill with her for a while, and then like 3 minutes later a friend of hers came and Cathi (my sis) ran off with Angela (her friend)....so now I can't go back to sleep, I'm dead tired, and I have nothing to do....my life is coming to an end. :P

Oh. and to top that off, I got a haircut yesterday....at the Academy where they train the students how to cut people's hair so it's students cutting your hair....I went there cuz it was the cheapest place in town....I told them I wanted a Bob....they gave me a Bob......MAJOR!!!!! It's like I don't have any hair now!!!! Well, ok so I do and it's not really *THAT* bad, it's more like *that* bad (notice the caps difference between the two). But I seriously am going to have people making fun of it till it grows out now...and that's the last thing I need is to give my friends one more thing to tease me about....but that's a whole other subject, and I'll save that for another time.....

Once in a while race or eternal running?

Ok, sorry I didn't say much in my first post...it was breakfast time and if I stopped for any longer than I did, I would have been in *huge* trouble! I had SOOOOO many things that needed to get done, I just couldn't (and my mom wouldn't let me anyways) stop.

Ever feel like you're just a guinea pig? You're stuck in the cage of life (which can be good at times and not so appealing at others) and all you can do is eat, sleep, and run around in circles in your little wheely-deal (also, we have parents and teachers telling us to do school and homework and also get jobs...a few of the things that sets us apart from guinea pigs). So in my life, I don't want to just sit back and eat or sleep, so I jump full-throttle into the wheel expecting some good times. What I don't expect, though, is that once you get the wheel rolling, it seems to never stop. First it's one thing, then the next, and then the thing after that!!! It just NEVER stops!!!

Speaking of it never stopping, just when I thought my wheel was going to slow down, my sister wants to do some stuff with me and my mom wants me to get off her computer and do something useful. So I guess I'm going to go jump back in for another ride.....I wonder when it will stop...........?

My first Blog....

Can't post now...mom will get mad...