A Story

Ok, I wrote this the other day, and I just thought I'd post it up and see what everyone thinks (all 2 of you that is, lol :p). Anyway, enjoy and lemme know! I'm thinking about making up a whole story to go around it so.. Anywayz, love ya all and God bless! :)

"Ok, so picture this: One lone figure standing at the edge of a huge canyon. The sides are sheer and, when you carefully glance over the edge, the bottom is so deep down it's impossible to see. The other side of the canyon is miles upon miles away *at least*, and it's hard to see because of a low and thin cloud cover. Then, by some unforeseen phenomena, you're allowed intrance into that one figure's mind...
"I can't do it! What if I try and fail? What's on the bottom? How do I stay afloat like the rest?? I *can't* do it!!!!!"

"What the heck..." You wonder. Then the clouds seem to lift for a few brief moments, allowing you to notice something that before had been shrouded in mystery. Out in the middle of the wide expanse between the two walls of the canyon were hundreds of thousands of people, all gliding through the air as if it were normal to them. In confusion, you turn to see you've just been joined by hundreds more on the edge of the cliff. Then your attention is drawn back to that one figure, with which you are still connected.

"I just don't understand! I can't do it! I'm not good enough, yet I'm expected to conquer the impossible. If I go, I'll surely fall to my complete and painful demise! They tell me it's easy, but they won't tell me how!!! Why won't anyone help me??"

You finally start to understand what's going on. All of the people now standing around you are either young and still learning, or are lost and confused and scared to make the jump. The jump is something all these people must make at one point or another, and who they are and how they live on land will determine whether they will fly or fall into the depths of the ravine. Then you start hearing more voices...

"They tell me if I act a certain way, I'll fly. But what is that certain way? How do I become good enough to soar?"

"I think you have to be a nice person, but how? I think you're supposed to do things like pray to the One every day, do good things for others, live an obedient life, and be a perfect person. But I'm not perfect! Does that mean I'm doomed???"

"No, you're not perfect, unlike me. But then no one is perfect like me, so the rest of you are all trash and shouldn't even try!"

"What makes the others soar? What do they have that makes them so amazing? What do they have that the fallen ones didn't?"

"Just be like me! Cool, collected, wear clothes like mine, talk like me, act like me, and you'll frickin' fly all the way! I've got the answer, so what's the deal with everyone else?!?!?!"

Hours pass and the thoughts and questions continue on. You see the looks on the people's faces: Fear, confusion, uncertainty, pain, anger, regret, longing, pressure... Does it end? Your answer comes partially when one of the figures steps back and then takes a leap out into the open. It seems at first that they were successful as you see them gliding out into the open, but then the wind picks up and turbulance hits the being and it is sent plumitting into the Depths. Everyone around you is hushed.

Then, another seems to say a temporary goodbye to those around them, and then peacefully steps off the edge and into the great unknown. It seems like hours later (though it was really only a matter of seconds) that you and the crowd sees them rise up above the wind and join the rest of the floating bodies. Everyone stands in admiration of the one who managed to fly, and you could hear the wishes of people near by--wanting to know that person's secret.

Then you notice that first lone being, still confused, scared and lost, getting ready to take the plunge as well. You reach out to stop them because you don't want to loose this person you've connected so closely with, but you stop yourself, knowing that it's time. You whisper a quiet goodbye & good luck, and the figure turns and acknowledges you, thanking you for your sympathy. Then, standing on the very edge of the rock, they looked up toward the wide blue sky and their toes hung heavy over the deep black depths, they took a step..."


<>< C-izzle <><

Aspire to Inspire

I really don't know why I'm calling this post "aspire to inspire" aside from the fact that it sounds cool and deep, but I guess it kinda fits what I'm gunna talk about.

Being a homeschooler, I can be SO much different than other kids around me, and I usually am different, because of how my parents raised me and from being home most of my life. And that was cool when home was still my life, but now I want to make other friends. I want to hang out with kids and be normal and crazy and "cool". But how? I feel like other kids don't want to accept me for who I am, so what do I do? Is there a certain way I need to dress? Act? Be? If so, I'm doomed, cuz I can't figure it out, and no one has told me yet...

But one thing I have been noticing is that most of the "popular" kids I know are "popular" because they are themselves. They have their tastes, their way to dress, act, be.. They've developed their character and they aren't afraid or ashamed of it. Another thing I have yet to grasp.

I guess I just have to learn to be myself, but first I have to make myself (does that make *any* sense??). I have to aspire to inspire myself to mold me to like things *I* like, do things *I* do, dress the way *I* dress, be *me*... While, of course, still trying to follow the world a bit to keep in touch and not become a total outcast. :p But I don't think I can be much more of an outcast than I am now, lol...

Anyway, another long post that probably only makes sense to me and will just confuse my few readers (if they still come since I haven't posted in eons, lol) and scare them away. :p I love ya'll, and God bless!!! I hope you have a wonderful week. :)

<>< Christi <><